Step Out & Step Up

..can’t sleep

Well, hello old friends.  It’s been a while since I’ve logged in and touched base.  I have been working harder than I have in years, hence my absence.  Between the radio show I host with my partner 5 days a week, I have also added a Saturday radio show to the roster that I host alone.  I’m broadcasting 6 days a week.

“C” has begun a new job in another city.  We will be leaving Saint John New Brunswick.  I am currently staying in Halifax, Nova Scotia- where I’m from.  The city has changed a lot in the three years I was gone.  Some areas I barely recognize due to gentrification.  Thanks Hipsters for driving up rental costs in the city.  Much appreciated.  I have some questions though.  How many micro breweries does one city need?  What’s the big deal with craft beer and Hipsters anyway?  Why the man-bun?  I’m just gonna say it… Craft beer= glass of farts.  There I said it.  You’re all thinking it but I said it.  “C” and I are frantically searching for a suitable rental.  I say frantically because ALL the apartments have been taken by students.  Damn university town.  Guess we know who’s really drinking all that extra gassy craft beer.

On another front, I have somewhat kicked up my medical cannabis activism game.  I’m a newbie; no where near as experienced as many of my peers, but I see injustice.  I hate injustice.  I see people suffering with a plethora of illness ranging from chronic to terminal flailing around a medical system hell bent on prescribing this and that only to manage symptoms, never addressing the cause.  Pharmaceutical tyranny I call it.  I see a void in our current system and I feel like I have just as good of a voice as anyone else.  I have partaken in a video that’s going viral, standing with other patients addressing how invaluable dispensaries are to us.  I have also given an interview with a local paper- it just came out today.  Change doesn’t happen without fight; without discord.  I am stepping out of my comfort zone and stepping up.  I think more of us need to do this in our everyday lives.  Step out, step up.  A little tip?  We won’t die nor break as a result of stepping out of our comfort zones.  As a society, we have become complacent much to our detriment.  We allow ourselves to be distracted by things that don’t affect us, don’t matter or don’t serve us, and when it’s suggested we put forth an effort, suddenly, many people simply “don’t have the time”.  It’s true that there are many demanding professions and careers out there, but let’s be honest; you have time, you just couldn’t be bothered and you’re not a cardiovascular surgeon.

“Leave it for someone else”

“So and So will take care of it”

“Surely the government will step in”

No.  These are incorrect statements, and they stink of naivete.

Your government doesn’t care about you.  You know why?  Because democracy is a misconstrued notion.  It’s a dead sentiment.  Countries are run by corporations.  Money and lobby groups dictate policy and laws.  The FDA?  A laughable organization.  It’s about who can contribute how many dollars.  It’s bullshit studies done by the very same drug companies trying to patent their poisons medicines.  “Surely there are drug trials and tests” you might retort.  Yeah there are.  Two.  Two tests.  Often performed by the drug companies’ own teams.  That’s not biased at all.  You know what else happens in government?  Nepotism.  Look at how many Trumps are fucking up running the White House.  Here in  Halifax, Nova Scotia, the city police chief is our Premiere’s brother.  You can’t make this shit up folks.

Two days ago, my best friend’s dispensary was robbed in broad daylight by police raided.  A lot of people are left without medication now and two people who volunteer their time to help other patients, one- a single mother of three- are now facing charges and court appearances.  Is this necessary?  Is this fair?  This friend  has given me medication at no cost many times so that I am not sick, so that I can function at a reasonable level and enjoy a reasonable quality of life.  (It’s not illegal to give or trade cannabis among patients- just an FYI) Do you know how grateful I am?  This friend has given medication and has offered a compassionate ear to virtually anyone truly in need.  There are thousands of patients that rely on Higher Living Wellness Centre.  Thousands of people have been made to feel safe, welcome, listened to, and many have developed life long friendships, and enjoy a peaceful sense of community with other like minded individuals.  We harm no one.  We bother no one.  We have medical prescriptions for cannabis.  No one is served without a prescription and ID.  The patients they serve range in ages all over the board and the cases range from things like cancer, MS, Parkinson’s, to Fibromyalgia, to rheumatoid arthritis, to PTSD and other painful life altering conditions.  Conditions that many doctors simply give up on.  It becomes a game of “let’s try this” “let’s increase that” ” I heard good things about this drug”  Doctors are in the game of symptom management.  Although here in Canada, doctors can’t accept “kickbacks” they CAN accept training in places like the Bahamas for 2 weeks or a nice golfing vacation.  Doctors are still bought here in Canada, they just accept a different currency.

For many of us, we have come to rely on communities like this.  Let’s not forget, the fast approaching legalization debacle was built on the backs of compassion clubs and dispensaries just like Higher Living Wellness.  It’s infuriating to me that the people with all the knowledge, the care and understanding of this plant; this GOD GIVEN plant are being locked out of an entire industry.  It’s infuriating to me that the government thinks it’s OK for a stage 4 breast cancer patient to get in line at the liquor store behind two twenty year olds looking to enhance their bar game that night.  It’s infuriating to me to tell someone dying of cancer that he has to log in on a computer with a credit card to a faceless entity for his legal medicine?  There’s no one you can ACTUALLY speak with when dealing with LPs.  It’s all email.  There no recommendations, there’s no teaching moments between an LP and a patient.  This is access for sick people??  Are you joking?  This must be a joke.  No one really treats the ill like this do they?  They do in Canada.  They do in Halifax Nova Scotia.  The Nova Scotia government doesn’t care about us, they don’t care about you.  I have already lost faith in doctors, I have since lost faith in my government, I have now lost faith in the police.  It’s become clear to us that we are nothing in their eyes.

We can’t have that.  I can’t have that.  I cannot foresee a future where all my rights have been stripped and I am forced to live a bed bound isolated life again and not have at the very least TRIED to fight back.

I have always been a fighter, I will always be a fighter.

Maybe cannabis is not your fight, that’s fine.  But I bet there’s something you need to be fighting for.  Don’t let your hesitation fester in to a life long regret.  Don’t be caught off guard and steamrolled; governments are notorious for silently removing rights while you’re playing Candy Crush or taking the latest Facebook quiz.  Take action.  There is SO MUCH wrong in this world right now, pick your battle and fight for it.  Fight with everything you have.

Step out, step up.

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Live Humbly, Be Charitable, Live Graciously,

Sam

I’m Not Dead.. I Swear

The Green Room Set UpI’ve had no energy left to blog lately.  I have begun a side project.  My partner and I started a live radio show that airs 5 days a week.  It’s been exhausting!

Our show is called The Green Room Hfx.  We live in Saint John, New Brunswick but we are from, and our sponsor is in Halifax, Nova Scotia.  We talk about Medical Cannabis, we review cannabis products, discuss Canadian Cannabis news, play music and create content.  I’m still writing the cannabis blog as well so my employment right now is based all around cannabis.  It’s great to be working with something you love and are passionate about.  It just takes a lot of my time as I create content with my partner, interview people, scour the news and do all the social media stuff.  Before I know it, it’s 10:00 pm and I haven’t even eaten yet!

I have missed checking in with my favorite bloggers and I promise to take some time over the new few days and catch up on your posts.  I have terrible time management skills and it’s really showing.

I’m tired.  I’ve been working harder than I have in years.  Some days I’m on the computer for as much as 10 hours a day.  I haven’t worked in a professional setting in over 6 years so it’s been a challenge for my body to get used to sitting up so long and so frequently.

I have big plans for this radio show, there’s a lot I want to do with it.  Live interviews is one of my big goals.  It’s taken some time to learn how to use the mix board and software to produce a radio show but it’s been a fun learning experience.  Frustrating at times, but fun.

If any of you use cannabis medically and would like to share your story, please let me know in the comments.

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Live Humbly, Be Charitable< Live Graciously,

Sam

 

The Price is… Too Much

Firstly, I apologize for my recent absence.  With the holidays and travelling and personal matters I cannot share at this time, and an officially broken wrist, I have been too distracted, tired or sore to go on social media.  I needed a break (pardon the pun).

Not much has been going on here but a few minor observances and a shit load of Netflix watching.  I’ve watched a few movies I enjoyed like I, Tonya, and the Disaster Artist.  I was pleased to see Franco take an award for that.  I blew through the Wormwood series in a day, I enjoyed the biographical movie All Eyez on Me about the iconic Tupac Shakur.  It’s been pretty quiet here.

Quiet.  That’s something I enjoy.  Peace and quiet.  I don’t like loud things, loud movies, loud shows, loud noises.  I’m an aficionado of documentary films and quiet quirky humor without the blatantly obnoxious laugh tracks.  I’m a big girl, I know when to laugh, thanks.  Even my musical tastes have changed.  When going for my MP3s to accompany house cleaning, I’m beginning to shy away from the loud raucous rock and metal that I used to listen to, opting for Radiohead, Wilco or, most recently, Diana Ross and the Supremes.  You can’t go wrong with Motown.

Cannabis brownieWhich brings me to the crux of my story.  Recently I acquired a medicinal brownie.  I’ve been pretty blunt and upfront about the fact that I have a permit/prescription to possess medical cannabis for chronic pain and PTSD.  So, I got this brownie..  Keep in mind I am very experienced, a veteran of cannabis if you will.  I have been using it for about a decade for pain, I have done my research, I know my strains and I know my doses.  I have never had a bad experience… Until now.

This brownie was about 3 inches long and maybe an inch wide.  I split it in half.  It’s a Saturday night so I offer the other half to my partner so she can relax.  Apparently this was not a 2 dose brownie.  I repeat, NOT a 2 dose brownie.  In actual fact, this was a four or 5 dose brownie.  So we unknowingly nibble at our brownies while enjoying a cup of coffee with a little Baileys in it.  Mistake number 2.  Do not mix said brownie with alcohol, even the wee bit of Baileys you dumped in your after dinner coffee.  I put on a recent episode of The Price is Right for shits and giggles.  We don’t have cable so occasionally I find game show episodes online for us to watch so we can feel like real people that have cable.  The Price is Right was mistake number 3.  It was at the second big wheel spin to see who the showcase showdown opponent was going to be when the brownie took hold.  

Holy fuck.

Too much
Too much The Blog BroadThere were flashing lights, bells ringing, thunderous applause, ” It’s a brand new car!!!” , people screaming and molesting Drew, saying hello to every fucking person they knew, people losing their shit screaming down aisles flailing their arms, people pushing past stunned models to grab at their haul of prizes, people screaming random numbers at shocked contestants, weird T shirts begging to Drew to love them, flashy costumes, honking horns, that yodelling Swiss guy, then it’s topped off with guilt about the unneutered pet population.

How do people watch this?

How the fuck does Drew Carey sleep at night?  No wonder he’s lost weight, poor bastard probably has PTSD.  I sure hope they pay him well and he has a good benefits package.

How did Bob Barker do it all those years?  I mean that guy was old as shit when he retired. 

That show is like an overdose of Aderall with a hit of meth all in one 21 minute episode.  It was too much.  TOO MUCH.

This brownie was too much.  TOO MUCH.

All we could do was go lay on our bare bed, (I had the brilliant idea of washing the bedding pre-brownie).  We had been over stimulated.  We grabbed the comforter and threw it over us like a protective fort.  Looking at each other under our fort all we could do, was repeat “Too much.  Too much.  Too much.”  

The lights were too much, music was too much, smells were too much, touch was too much, The Price is Right  was TOO MUCH.

I vomited a couple of times and crawled back into the fort with “C”.  We fell asleep.  I eventually woke up and finished the laundry but “C” was out for the night.  Lesson learned.  Well played meth brownie, well played.

It did get me thinking about how The Price is Right kind of mirrors American society.  

Play the game, win prizes!

The more shit, the better!

LOUD LOUD LOUD!!  with some screaming for good measure

It’s all about advertising, but throw in some literal bells and whistles and flashing lights and no one’s the wiser!

I want it all now now now

Who cares about the fine print, like duties and taxes that need to be paid, a lot of people don’t even take their prizes because it costs too much.  Nothing is truly free but it looks like it is and that’s all that matters


Yay!! America! 

yeesh… 

Too much. 


Live Humbly, Start Small, Live Cautiously,

Sam


Images

Hank Hill/ too high  http://media.ifunny.com/results/2014/02/06/yqeg15gwyf.jpg

Price is Right gif  https://uproxx.files.wordpress.com/2014/10/tpir.gif?w=650

Brownie/Selfie are my own.

New Fall Writing Project

Medical cannabisCannabis.  A personal favorite topic of mine.  I suffer with a few chronic pain conditions (Fibromyalgia, Arthritis, Degenerative Disc Disease and Endometriosis) and after trying dozens of prescription medications that offered far more negative side effects than actual relief, I discovered cannabis through a friend of mine.  It worked.  It worked far better than the numerous pills- opiates, benzos, anxiety and sleeping medications, anti inflammatories, Gabapentin, Lyrica and high doses of antidepressants that were slowly killing me.  All I did was sleep.  I was dizzy with vertigo, nauseous and just numb.  At one point I even ballooned up to 260 pounds.  I was also starting to have problems with my liver.  I learned over time that the more cannabis I used, I didn’t need the Gabapentin, the Lyrica, the Amitriptyline,  the benzos and I was even able to reduce my dosage of antidepressants.  I laughed more.  I lost weight.  I enjoyed things more.  I hurt way less, I threw up less, I just felt better.  It took years for me to finally convince my doctor to prescribe it to me legally.  I brought her articles and Post Its with websites and video suggestions, my documented evidence that it indeed worked well for pain without all the side effects.  I have been pro cannabis (used responsibly) for many years.  

A couple of years ago, one of my best friends opened a dispensary in Nova Scotia and I have been a big proponent of hers since.  She helps patients who are dealing with cancer, long term illnesses and chronic pain disorders.  She believes that people have the right to alternative health care and the right to medicate with cannabis.  I tend to agree with her.  We are in the midst of a large scale opiate epidemic that is not only destroying lives, but destroying families and creating a large burden on our health care system.  That epidemic has some sinister roots all leading back to profits.  In all, opiates tend to be over prescribed. Positive features of cannabis

Although here in Canada, we are on the brink of Legalization of Marijuana, there are still many kinks to be worked out, policies to be devised, laws to be developed and bills to be passed.  In the meantime, patients are being left at the mercy of the large corporate Licensed Producers (LPs) who deal in mass quantities, at higher prices and in many cases, poorer quality.  There have even been mass recalls where toxic pesticides were discovered during random testing on crops that were advertised as organic.  These LPs deal in online sales predominantly.  I can’t help but wonder;

Annual Deaths MarijuanaWhat if you’re sick or elderly?  Maybe you can’t afford Internet or don’t have a computer or smartphone.  What if you’ve never tried cannabis and have questions about what strains would work best, or how you can expect to feel?  Maybe you want to try alternatives to smoking.  Maybe you’d prefer to ingest oils and edibles.  What about these people?  This is why the role of dispensaries should be considered a crucial part of Legalization.  To make sure people are being educated on what they are buying.  To make sure there are plenty of options to medicate that don’t include smoking.  To service people who can’t afford large quantities.  

These are the things my friend fights for and why I both support and admire her.  Recently we discussed starting a blog for her shop featuring patient stories so I’m happy to say that is my new job.  Tonight I interviewed my first patient and designed the blog site.  I’m hoping to have it finished and published no later than Friday.  I plan on sharing it once I’m finished and I really hope that some of you check it out if that’s something you are interested in.

Having a new (paid) project gives me a sense of purpose and a pep in my step.  I am really looking forward to doing to the best job I can for her to make it successful.  I am very grateful for the opportunity.

 

Have you tried cannabis?  What’s your story?

 

Live Humbly, Be Charitable, Live Graciously,

 

Sam

 

Images

One of the many exceptional features of cannabis is… https://illegallyhealed.com/millions-of-cannabis-patients-are-frustrating-jerry-are-you-one-of-them/

Annual Deaths  http://medicalcannabiscultivation.com/medical-marijuana-pain-relief/

“Medical Marijuana”  http://lasvegasreleaf.com/nevada-legalized-marijuana-now-faq/